The Fragility Of Health

2026-02-04

Two weeks ago I fell ill. It has almost been three weeks now. And I first vomited and then had diarrhea for three days. Then I recovered and thought I was out of the woods. But it turns out I wasn’t and I got diarrhea again, I also got a sore throat and some mucus.

And during this time I felt powerless, I wanted to power through for Sneha and my kids, but I was hit pretty hard. There were a few times where I was too tired and couldn’t even work or sick at a desk, I just had to lie down and nap during the day. While hanging out with the kids I would lie on the floor just to rest.

And I feel this made me feel old, and also made me reevaluate myself a little. I thought I was stronger and had better constitution. Usually my stomach is rock solid and even when we went to India I didn’t get too sick. But these last few weeks has changed that, sometimes I will get struck down by disease. And thankfully it was temporary, if it wasn’t that would be a whole different blog post, but I am getting older and need to slow down.

And I feel fragile. Disease is stronger than me. I am now 37. If I get a bad disease I would have to slow down or even stop. Disease is stronger than work or schedules. If I get struck down again I will have to take sick days and just rest. There is something greater than me that controls my life, and usually it cooperates with me, but sometimes it doesn’t.

-Gary