Being sick

2025-05-29

Having sick kids is terrible. They are not feeling well, they are scared sometimes, they cough themselves awake. Our oldest often has a bloody nose and he will say ‘all done, all done’. And I feel so bad, all I can do is hold him and try to soothe him. Our youngest has a blocked nose and wont eat, I feel so bad but there isn’t anything I can do. So I try to show love and hope that their body can fight it off.

And then what is even worse is when I am sick. Yesterday I had a 101 fever and was pretty useless during the evening. I took some medication and played with our youngest while being out of it. I held him a lot and took him outside. But it felt like I was failing my kids and putting burden on my wife, which doesn’t feel good. I think some small part of this is that I don’t get stick that often, that has changed a little since having kids, I am sick more, but overall I think I have a solid constitution score. I know in my logic brain that every gets sick and that it isn’t my fault when I get a cold or fever, but my ego is bruised and I am debilitated.

Today is better than yesterday and hopefully I continue to get better, but it does feel bad to be sick.

-Gary